Let me tell you my story

Bye bye

Yeah, you got it right.
Your friendly neighbourhood blogger will leave you for 2 whole weeks.
Starting tomorrow.

So where will I go? you might ask (is you are by any means as curious in nature as me).
Well since you are asking so nicely, I will tell you.

I will go to Norway.
To the most northern part of the country to be more precise.
See my grandfather (on my dads side) comes from there originally (and then he met grams and moved to Sweden (Trollhättan actually) for love).
A few years back he bought a house there, so that's where we'll stay.

Norway's a good country I think.
I like the language, it sounds cosy to me.
And the environmet's very beautiful too, especially in the north with the mountains and all.
I will take loads of pictures, I promise.

Try not to miss me too much people!
I'll be back before you know it.
Until then....

Take care all right. Don't do anything I wouldn't do. Ha ha..Peace out! (^ - ^) 

Sleepy

Hi all my neighbours!
(And everyone else that stumbles across this post, you are just as welcome of course.)

It's 10.48 in the morning here in Sweden when I am writing this and so far I have been on a power walk (about 5 kilometres I think) and had breakfast.

Right now I am waiting for my sister to get ready in the shower so that I can go there...bu she's shaving her legs so it might take some time before that happens (she's soooo slow).

Or not!
She just opened the door to the computer room and told me that she was ready. HA ha, talk about a coincidence.

Today will be a good day I think. At least it feels like it now. I am still freaking out about the whole apartment business, but I am moving forward in the queues so I am trying to have faith that it will work out.

In case you wonder about the over excited headline...well I don't really have a good answer for you. Don't know why I decided to make it in a ton of languages (don't ask me how my brain works, I have no idea).
Just for fun I guess.
And in case some of the signs (kanji, that's what it's called right?) is wrong, I apologize for that. I translated it on Babelfish and since I don't speak either Japanese (although I would like to learn), Chinese or Korean (and above all don't write kanji) I can't tell if it's correct or not. So...sumimasen in case it's wrong.

Anyway. I will go to my grandfather (on my mothers side)'s "birthday get together thing" today. He turns 70. There will be cake so I suppose it'll at least be a little fun (nothing can be completely boring with cake involved, right?).

Take care guys! (^ - ^) Ja ne!      

...but still not going completely crazy (or having a nervous breakdown)

I trust that you all know by now about the apartment hunt business that goes on in my life. 
Right?

Well for the ones that have managed to miss it (not that I know how that should have happened, but still...):
I am currently trying to find an apartment in Lund (where I will attend the university in the fall) and the stress of it is really getting to me. ...Yeah, that's basically it.

Okay so I just though that you wanted to know that I am still managing.
(I have issues with not getting to be the one that's in control...in case someone has missed that).
I mean the stress is there all the time, nudging at me from the back of my mind, but I have it under control so far.
The complete freak out is never far away these days, but for now there is nothing to worry about.

I am still as sane as I'll ever be (which is not very sane if you compare to some people, but who said that we were going to compare?) and I am really trying to keep it that way. This is a fight for me, to not have control. For some people (my parents, especially my mother) it might be hard to understand how someone can have such a hard time with it, but well I have been the one that has all the answers, the one you ask when you don't know pretty much my whole life. So I guess I just have a hard time adjusting to the fact that it's not like that anymore.
I am still the master of my own destiny, but not in the same way I used to be.

*Sigh* I guess we all have our own problems.
And after all I should be happy that mine aren't bigger than this.

It'll work out somehow. It has to.

Love You guys. Thanks for listening! (^ - ^) Peace out!

In honor of Bastille Day, show us something French.

The eiffel tower

Can it get any more French?

....I think not.

(Well that would be if I had a picture of a baguette...but unfortunately I don't)

This picture's taken in November 2007 (in case someone was curious) and ignoring the fact that it's slightly blurry I am quite happy with it.

The appartment hunt:
Not going that much forward. I am far back in line for all the apartments I am queuing for (15/25..or something, is the best).
Can't ignore the fact that this worries me, but I am trying to keep positive and think about the fact that it's a lot of time left before the term starts.
...it'll work out somehow.

Take care guys! (^ - ^) Ja ne!

Today's the last day for the ones that hasn't signed up to apply for an apartment yet (I have done that, did it the first day it was possible). 

So tomorrow I'll get my number in the queue...and they will release the apartments available.

Geeeeees....this is not good for my overly controlling nerves!

Breath Sofia...breath. It'll all be just fine. Just fine. Gotta keep telling myself that as much as possible.

Peace out all! (^ - ^) Love Ya!

Well almost anyway, I will get my number in the queue thingy tomorrow or on Monday, so then it'll formally begin.
But I have registered on the site where they have all the apartments.
That counts as having started the whole project...right?

I got in to the university.
Not to be cocky or anything, but I didn't think anything else (I have an average of 18,54 with 20,0 as the best...so you get it).
So now it's serious thinking about the future/this autumn (I am not going to think about anything further than that, I am young and stupid, remember? ha ha).

It's huge.
I think that I am slowly beginning to understand that now.
Perhaps it sounds overly dramatic..but: something is moving inside me when I think about it, a nervousness that I can't quite rationalize away.

But see it's not that I am nervous about leaving, not really.
(I suspect that that's the "normal" thing to be nervous about, but what can I say...I am not normal than I guess)

I am rather scared that I will not be able to move, that there will be no apartment for me no matter how much I try.
Ever since this school year started I have looked forward to moving, to finally being on my own, and the though of that not happening makes me wanna freak out.
Okay so basically, I am so scared.
Deep, deep inside where no one that meets me every day can see it (I am good at keeping up a facade most of the time), but it's almost always there.

Perhpas I should tell you this:
Unless you really f*ck it up, basically everyone that applies (and get's in, duh!) to the university gets an apartment.
So you see, I have nothing to be stressed out about...
...but you know me by now, you know that things that I can't control makes me feel like this.
And well, I can't control this, it's all up to someone else.

The control freak in me is pulling her hair.
You understand right?

But I suppose that there's not much to do.
I will be just fine.
Just have to breath slowly and take every day as it comes.

Hold your thumbs for me okay.
I need your support on this.
And that is a big thing for me to say.
Because (as you also know by now) I am a person that likes to think that she can manage everything on her own.

Take care guys! (^ - ^) Ja ne! 

New hair

1 comment

What do you think???

I looooove it.
It has been such a long time since I was a blond, and well I guess I missed it on some unconscious level.

Peace out mina-san! Have a great day!

What question do you hate being asked?

Perhaps it's stupid, but I hate when random people (meaning: people that I don't know so well, meaning: most people) ask me: What are you writing?
It's okay when it's someone that's my friend, because then they will not think that I am a complete nut when I say that I write fantasy...and they will not ask for a recap of the whole story.

BUT, when it's someone that I'm not so close to, I just hate it! I can't explain to them what I am doing without sounding all nuts, and I can't tell them everything that has happened so far either. That's just a lot of work, which I don't like...

I want to tell them: My memoirs, just to make them leave me alone. Or just say something else really bitchy (yes, I think it's sort of fun to be a bitch sometimes, no matter how screwed up that is). But I don't. Because my parents did a great job with me.

Well...that was all I think.

Take care mina-san! (^ - ^) Ja ne! 

The man with the theory of relativity (e=mc2) said something very wise (something more than the obvious I mean).

Albert Einstein

"Am I, or the others, crazy?"

It's a smart thing to say I think, because it's something that you can never really get an answer to. That's actually the most exciting kind of questions, the kind that you can debate on either with someone or inside your own head.

Long ago (quite long ago at least) I came to the conclusion that I am a little crazy, but so are the others. The difference, according to me, is that I am good crazy while they are just annoying crazy.

He must have thought about it a great deal, I suspect you do when you understand things that no one else does. They must have thought that he was nuts. Poor Einstein.

But well... it is like they say "..you can never become a prophet in you own hometown..". And he did quite well for himself anyway don't you think?

Ha ha, to be honest I don't know what (if anything) I wanted to say with this post, but I guess you can figure out a meaning for yourself if you feel that you need one.

Anyway....I actually got this quote from "Criminal Minds" (I miss it! it's not on tv at the moment..) and just loved it, so I guess that's why I had to post it. See some thoughts aren't just made for my head, they are made for print. Which means that they go on Vox for you poor souls to try to sort out.

I will never become a prophet in my own hometown, that's for sure...but I suppose you can count me as the "you" in "you can never..." so that's not strange..I am rambling. Will stop doing so. Now.

Take care guys! (^ - ^) Peace out!